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February 10, 2016

Style Diary: Secret Love

Woke up super early this morning, not sure why though. But I'd have to say that early morning vibes really excites me. They're just so calming and silent. It's the only time you feel as closest you are with your Creator, and nothing can ever beat that feeling. So as usual, as soon as I got up, drank a bottle of plain water, then only I'd go about solah, shower, breakfast etc.


Outfit:
Scarf: From Makkah
White Shirt: H&M
Flare Outerwear: Shea Rasol
Pants: Mango
Purse: Hush Puppies

And what I'd usually do while getting ready is I'd turn the radio on just so that the morning feels cheerful and alert. Especially this morning, as I turned on the radio, I heard this song that I immediately fell in love with. I didn't know the name of the title and the band singing it. So I simply googled some of the lyrics I managed to catch which was "Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?" haha.. And found that it was this new song called Secret Love Song by Little Mix. I can't stop listening to it ever since!
February 9, 2016

Dear Shea: Getting Back Up

Assalamualaikum.

Dear Shea, I've been reading your blog for several years & you always inspired me with your modest fashion style. But recently, you've inspired me much more.


I used to be a very optimistic, talkative person. I have a blog too at which I shared a lot about my life & dreams. About 2 years ago, I found someone who I thought as the love of my life. He was everything that I ever dreamed of. We were happy together & even planned to get married at the end of this year! But several months ago, as if someone turned off some switch in him - He suddenly changed. Ignored me totally & I felt like the biggest fool ever. I cried nights & days. I was totally devastated. I turned my blog into private mode, deativated my fb, left many whatsapp groups & totally isolated myself from others, mainly because I cannot accept why other people can be so happy when I need to go through this very bad heartbreak.


But somehow, I continued reading your blog & IG. I was curious "how can this girl be so happy all the time" but then I read about your heartbreak story & suddenly I realized that you are what you are because you chose to. You have your struggles & heartbreaks too but you chose to remain positive. I'm so sorry for what I thought of you initially. You're an inspiration & I wish I have such strength too.


THANK YOU, SHEA. You woke me up from my dark, miserable life. I need to gather all the strength because I don't have anything else left. Happy birthday Shea! I wish you all the good things in the world.


I wish, one day I can tell my stories without crying anymore.

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Dear Miss A,

Waalaikumsalam.. Thank you so much for writing to me! Your letter brought me to tears cause I Iiterally did not know how my post could've inspired you in one way or another. You see, writing that Mr. Coin Laundry post took guts and in the end, I overcame my fear and just published it. It was not my intention to attract unwanted attention from anyone seeing how I could easily do that. But it's totally because writing gave me a sense of relief, whether or not anybody reads it. I think that's why I'd always love essay-writing homeworks (and exams!) when I was in highschool :p


As similar to how I first started blogging, every time I finish writing a post, I'd feel so fulfilled for doing so and it has provided me with so much comfort that I'm blessed to know that it may have been for some of you too. That is why I finally took a deep breath and just let my words and fingers flow last 3rd February.


And you know what, darling, beneath all these colourful posts, is indeed a real life human being who's life is never perfect to begin with. Every other writer or blogger that you may have come across has their own story, whether or not they're comfortable to share it with the world. As for me, I choose to be genuine and as honest with all of you readers as how I have always been since day one. So, I'd like to thank you for sending in your letter cause I know it must've taken you a lot of courage to do so.


There's a line in Katy Perry's song (yeah, I love to understand lyrics and what it means) called "Unconditionally", it says, "Acceptance is the key, to be truly free". And you know what, this line kinda opened up my eyes too in accepting whatever tests that is decreed upon me. We have our Lord, and we hold on to Him no matter what, right? Therefore no matter what hardship you go through in life, pick yourself back up and accept it just because. You may not see the positive outcome of it now, but you will one day.


Then you'll be truly free.


You have one life to live, and I know it must've hurt you so much, trust me I've been there, but remember that you are not defined by the guy that broke your heart. I learnt that the hard way and it took me 5 friggin long years to finally release myself from this chain. I was this hopeful girl that I made myself believe that one day he'll come knocking on my door the way I'd always imagined it to be.


But a lesson one must learn while growing up is that there are some things in life you can't control. What you can control though, is the decisions you make in your life.


I have high aspirations for myself, I'm sure you do too. So climb back up, be yourself once again and endure the pain like a true hero. You are your own hero, so you do you. Notice how many times I'm saying "you, you, you", right? It's because this is your life, and only you have the power to shape it, with Allah's will of course.


So yes Miss A, I want you to set yourself a perfect date for when you finally can let this all go. I chose mine to fall on my birthday this year and alhamdulillah, I'm doing better each day as of late. I'm not gonna be bitter, and I'm not gonna hold grudges. Most importantly I do not regret for whatever choices I have made in life, and in this case--to love a person. Cause you know what, that's just me. And loving another human being is an admirable trait anybody could ever posses and could ever give. It's his loss that he let this gigantic amount of love I have in store for him go. I didn't lose anything. And so did you.


Now wipe those tears and turn that frown upside down, cause I think you're now ready to tell your story without crying anymore.


Love you. xx
February 8, 2016

Thoughts: Ageing Gracefully

Taffeta skirt is from Shea Rasol KL

So, it's my birthday today guys!! And coincidentally it's my 1000th post on My Amethyst too! Alhamduillah to The Almighty, Allah swt, for this amazing life you have given me for the past..ehemmm..28 years!! Hahaha.. I told everyone on instagram that I turned 25 this year, cause honestly speaking, I still feel like a 25 year old! I'll always feel 25, I'm not sure why. But as they always say, age is just a number, right? 


Of course it is, but if you ask me, I'm not ashamed at all to be 28. This is because from what I learnt from the past is that each and every year you have lived and breathed, makes for who you are today. All the ups and downs you go through is what makes you--YOU. And I really don't get how some people would dread people knowing how old they are. Why would you be embarrassed of your age? Do you live according to other people's opinions about you? No. Are you afraid to be judged according to the age you are with the life you lead? Nuh-uh. Ain't nobody got time for that.


Take pride in your age, cause to me the best you can go about it, is to age gracefully. That's my aim in life and I in fact am so proud that the older I get, the more wiser I think I am and should be. Isn't it a great feeling to know how every year, as your age increases, wisdom takes its rightful place and levels up to your age and maturity based on the past year's experiences? I for one am happy when young adults nowadays comes up to me for my advises in life for they know, they can trust me.


It's a remarkable feeling I tell you.


Whether you're 25, 32, 46, or even 58, your life is yours and you should be grateful that you have that much amount (yet) to be the best person you could ever be like how you want you to be. In the end of the day, the only only person that can make you truly happy, is yourself. So make sure you're happy with where you are right now and let the next following birthday come by with open arms!


And as for me, being 28 this year is the year where I'm gonna start spectacularly. I'm not gonna let hurtful things take me down and I vow to become a stronger woman in all aspects of my life. I pray so that whatever decisions I make, is for the best of my parents, my family, friends and you readers. Like the lyrics to Taylor Swift's song called 'Clean' which I so can relate to right now..


"The rain came pouring down,
When I was drowning,
That's when I could finally breathe.

And that morning, 
Gone was any trace of you,
I think I am finally 
Clean."


Omg I love that song. And its meaning. Till later, guys! Imma chomp down this cake I just received and cheat all day long to sinful treats hihi... I deserve it! I love you!


And ooohh, the most important thing is, I truly apologise if I ever said or did anything wrong that may have offended or hurt you in any way or another this past year. I am after all a human being, thus I know I am capable of doing so even though I may not realise it. Minta ampun dan maaf ya... In case I don't make it that far in life.. Heee.. Hey, it is possible! I love you once again! xx


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*On my birthday, the only wish I'm making is so that you guys would like to give back to those truly in need. I'd highly suggest Tabung Syria if you'd like to donate, cause I hear the weather's there getting pretty cold, and without proper homes and materials, they'll be living in extreme cold weather. So please, let's help them ya*
February 7, 2016

Style Diary: Of Reds And Blues

Another awesome day to start off, cause most of my customers that came to my boutique today are off blog readers of mine, from Malaysia and Singapore! I had soooo much fun chatting with all of you, I wish we could hangout longer and talk about more girly stuff heheee.. But before I arrived, I managed to snap these pics to show you guys how I worked reds and blues together :D


Outfit:
Scarf: Shea Rasol (soon to be released!)
Cropped top: Forever21
Lounge Pants: Uniqlo
Purse: Vintage
Block pumps: Charles & Keith
Sunnies: Retro Superfuture

And as I was looking at myself in the mirror before I headed out the door, I told my mom, "Ma, I look skinnier now, right?" She just gave me a nonchalant-look-like-she-doesn't-care-and-then-looked-away. AHHHH, why is it so hard for you to admit that your daughter's gorgeous?? Bhahahah.
February 6, 2016

Style Diary: Heavenly Peaches

The weekend is upon us, and I'm already planning what to do for the rest of these four days of holiday! Scratch that, I don't do holidays if you must know. But today I managed to escaped work a bit and accompanied my mom to her relative's wedding, well, technically it would be considered as my relative too. And here's what I wore!


Outfit:
Scarf: Shea Rasol
Dress: Tiara KL
Skirt: Gifted to me
Feathered purse: Miss Selfridge

I'm exceptionally loving anything subtle, and today's colour combination totally speaks so! This scarf is still available in store, and I think the dress is too. So if you'd like to recreate this look, you definitely can! :D

And ps: Kudos mama for taking this shot of moi! (Though it was a struggle to get her to do this perfectly cause she's a leftie and is so not used to handle cameras.. Haha.. Moms..)